Thursday, November 29, 2012
Twisted Logic
About one and half week left before I ORD. I have still yet to secure a job. Moreover, BTT is coming soon and I have yet to revise anything yet. All I'm doing now is to rely on recruitment agencies to help me find an Admin Job but so far I haven't been shortlisted in any yet probably I lack working experience. But thinking back about this logic, doesn't mean I have worked before means I would be good in my new job. I could have been giving my fliers as a part timer in the past. But that doesn't mean I will be effective in taking up administrative tasks. Sometimes people's logic just doesn't make sense to me. Many said I don't have any working experience. But they didn't consider that many others don't have the relevant working experience as well. At least I had been doing admin work for the past whole year thanks to NS. Another question is this, if all employers are to hire people with working experience, who is going to hire those without? Is the economy just going to use the same group of people over and over again till their age is 99 and finally decide to start employing entry level applicants? Shall see how things goes..
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Life Being An Unemployed Yet Busy
Currently I'm still clearing my offs and leave. Initially during my break, I didn't have much to do. Just looking for jobs and doing my routine exercises and playing computer games. However, the pass few days I bought 3 books which made me pretty busy. I bought an Excel Guidebook, POA 'O' Levels Topical Guide and a book that's called "How To Talk To Anyone". These books have kept me quite busy. Actually I'm partially so busy because I still have yet to completely give up totally on the time for gaming. Though I reduced the amount of time I play each days so that I can read these books, but time is still insufficient... Sigh if only I had 48 hours a day. But these 3 books had been quite enriching for me. I've been learning new things everyday for the past few days thanks to those books. Seems like I need to make a bigger sacrifice to cater for time for the books.
Recently I have increased my runs' distance up from a 5km plus to a 8km plus. More tiring definitely but I feel greater sense of accomplishment after each runs. Knowing I can run longer makes me feel better and healthier. Since I run every alternate days, one week I could run up to 32km!! I guess the distance I ran could be twice as much the distance some adults walk. I had started running 4 years ago. At that time, running was purely 3 reasons. First, it is to train me for National Service. I knew I was physically unfit. Thus, I started training to prepare me for the worst. So I can endure training better during NS. Secondly, it was for my ego, didn't want to show others that I'm that weak. Especially in front of girls lol. Thus every time I run I would be imagining people are looking at me and there's no way I would slow down. Lastly, for physical build. Running tones our muscle. Making a person look better. Moreover, since I took up Rock-Climbing, upper body fitness wasn't a problem to me. To balance out, I need to improve my lower body fitness by running. Until now I'm still not as fit as others despite training so much. I guess nature do play a significant part in our physical strength. However, now I'm running to maintain my fitness and my health and more importantly, I started to love running. It feels good after each run. The refreshing feeling you get after you shower after a run is just too awesome. Running has been my new passion since. Hopefully I can continue run till the age when I can't even walk hehe
Recently I have increased my runs' distance up from a 5km plus to a 8km plus. More tiring definitely but I feel greater sense of accomplishment after each runs. Knowing I can run longer makes me feel better and healthier. Since I run every alternate days, one week I could run up to 32km!! I guess the distance I ran could be twice as much the distance some adults walk. I had started running 4 years ago. At that time, running was purely 3 reasons. First, it is to train me for National Service. I knew I was physically unfit. Thus, I started training to prepare me for the worst. So I can endure training better during NS. Secondly, it was for my ego, didn't want to show others that I'm that weak. Especially in front of girls lol. Thus every time I run I would be imagining people are looking at me and there's no way I would slow down. Lastly, for physical build. Running tones our muscle. Making a person look better. Moreover, since I took up Rock-Climbing, upper body fitness wasn't a problem to me. To balance out, I need to improve my lower body fitness by running. Until now I'm still not as fit as others despite training so much. I guess nature do play a significant part in our physical strength. However, now I'm running to maintain my fitness and my health and more importantly, I started to love running. It feels good after each run. The refreshing feeling you get after you shower after a run is just too awesome. Running has been my new passion since. Hopefully I can continue run till the age when I can't even walk hehe
Friday, November 23, 2012
Priority
Nowadays I've have planned to do a lot of stuff but I haven't been faithfully following my plans. These are the list of things that I have planned to do:
1. Learn Basic Accounting
2. Learn Excel
3. Read as many books as possible
4. Maintain my routine runs
5. Study for BTT
Basically that's all I want to do for the next 2 weeks. Time is short but I have no choice but to rush. Gotta focus on all these instead of playing dota 2 all day long. Gaming addiction might just elapse again.. It has ruined my life and I'm still playing despite knowing that lol. Sometimes logic just isn't enough to convince me not to play. Gotta get my priority right. Wrong prioritization has caused me to made many mistakes in my life so far and mostly it concerns my studies. Time to have some discipline and stay focus!
1. Learn Basic Accounting
2. Learn Excel
3. Read as many books as possible
4. Maintain my routine runs
5. Study for BTT
Basically that's all I want to do for the next 2 weeks. Time is short but I have no choice but to rush. Gotta focus on all these instead of playing dota 2 all day long. Gaming addiction might just elapse again.. It has ruined my life and I'm still playing despite knowing that lol. Sometimes logic just isn't enough to convince me not to play. Gotta get my priority right. Wrong prioritization has caused me to made many mistakes in my life so far and mostly it concerns my studies. Time to have some discipline and stay focus!
Energy
Personally, I feel that I'm a person that is filled with lots and lots of energy. However, I always spend all these energy in the wrong way. To be honest, I'm a shy person. I tend avoid eye contact with people or sometimes even avoiding people. In gatherings or social events, I tend to feel drained out because I expense a lot of energy. Probably because I'm an introvert, I don't deny that. Because of that, I think I looked like someone that lacks confidence in the other's opinion. My energy is spent mostly on thinking how I should behave in public and walking fast to avoid crowds. These thoughts and actions drains a lot of energy.
However, I recently realized that the only time I not conscious of my actions and behavior is when I have little energy left. Usually after my routine runs, when I would feel sore and tired. My walking speed would decrease significantly (Finally walking like a normal human). and I would just continue walking without avoiding eye contact and feeling confident. I'm thinking when my energy level is low, I don't bother about all those thoughts. Like I'm already so tired, why should I make myself even more tired. Funny thing is, I don't apply this logic during normal times.
As for times when I'm alone, I feel that my energy is unlimited. I can keep working, playing all day long without feeling tired at all. It's also probably why I like running alone. I get to spend time with myself while training my mental and physical strength. During runs, I always talked to myself, asking myself to go further, faster or simply not to stop (What an introvert I am). No doubt I am an introvert, but when I becomes open to people, I tend to become dominant. So some people do not find me an introvert. Feeling as though I'm an oxymoron. Well that's all I have for now~
However, I recently realized that the only time I not conscious of my actions and behavior is when I have little energy left. Usually after my routine runs, when I would feel sore and tired. My walking speed would decrease significantly (Finally walking like a normal human). and I would just continue walking without avoiding eye contact and feeling confident. I'm thinking when my energy level is low, I don't bother about all those thoughts. Like I'm already so tired, why should I make myself even more tired. Funny thing is, I don't apply this logic during normal times.
As for times when I'm alone, I feel that my energy is unlimited. I can keep working, playing all day long without feeling tired at all. It's also probably why I like running alone. I get to spend time with myself while training my mental and physical strength. During runs, I always talked to myself, asking myself to go further, faster or simply not to stop (What an introvert I am). No doubt I am an introvert, but when I becomes open to people, I tend to become dominant. So some people do not find me an introvert. Feeling as though I'm an oxymoron. Well that's all I have for now~
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Drive
I always thought. What was it that suddenly cause me to work so hard and study so hard since secondary school. I used to be obsessed with gaming. I copied homework in school or sometimes didn't even do it. Because of that, I flunk my PSLE. I got an aggregate score of only 184 while most people would get 200+ or maybe 220+. I can't even get into an express stream and thus I ended up in a Normal Academic Stream. We were looked down upon on by others. People who can't study. People with no future. But those days I didn't care about all these. All I cared about was to end each day quickly so I could get home to play my Maplestory, Runescape and etc. There were so many games for me to play and so many achievements for me to complete. I didn't spare time for studies. I continued to rank below average in class.
I was pretty interested and good in math and I managed got into the first class which was supposed to be the top NA class. However, my results still remain the same for semesters. It was until Sec 4 when one exam had changed my fate since then. It was an Elementary Math exam. Days after the exam, everyone in class received our results. That time I only got a B3 which ranges from 65-69. Yet I was ranked third in class for E-Math. I was happy of course. For someone who always ranked below average, it was an achievement for me. It felt great. It created some sort of a force in me. I knew then, that I wanted to win. I wanted to rank higher. But back then, the temptations of playing computer games still exist. I knew if I wanted to rank higher, score higher, I had to sacrifice my times for games. Not just a little, but entirely. It was a painful decision. I had to resist strong temptations and urge in order to study. Many a times, it makes it hard for me to focus. So I continued to resist.
I started working on Math. Not just E-Math but also Additional Math. Started by just doing homework and then I move on to do extra revisions. The next exam came. Think I scored A1 for both Math or maybe one A1 and one A2. I felt like my effort is starting to pay off. I continued to work harder. This time round I continued to revise on my Math and additionally started working on my Combined Science. Then it was the end of Sec 4. Managed to get two A1s for Math and one A2 for Combined Science. Moreover, Sec 4 is the year which I get to take 'O' Levels E-Math unlike other subjects which were 'N' Levels. Everyone in my class took the exam. The results came out next year. Only 3 had gotten the desired A1 results. About half the class got A2. The rest didn't make the cut. I top the class for Math last year. So, I really wanted to get an A1 for this. Moreover, I wouldn't have to re-take to get a better score this year. My teacher had named 2 persons before the results were given at the end of the day. I was worried if I'm the last person. It was until I received my results slip that I jumped in joy. Finally gotten the A1 that I worked so hard for. It was another motivation for me for my final year. As I wouldn't have to take 'O' Level E-Math anymore, I just needed to focus on my other subjects. I started the year with a great boost. My foundation for Math and Science is already there. I just needed to maintain them. However, my other subjects like Chinese, Combined Humanities, English, Design & Technology are still pretty poor. I started working on these subjects. Lucky for me, I get to study 5 years. If I only studied 4 years, I wouldn't have enough time to study the remaining subjects and I would have flunk 'O's. It was hard. All of a sudden got to study everything in just 1 and a half years, considering that I did almost nothing for the past 3 and half years. Temptations to play computer games still exist once in awhile. But sometimes I do give in to my temptations after resisting for so long.
After completing 'O's, it was not long before we receive our results. I managed to get five A1s, one A2, and one B4. The B4 was my English. I regretted so much not putting enough effort in it. I spent a lot of time studying the other subjects while I knew my english was weak and yet I put in little time to improve it. That was my regret during that time. Got an L1R5 of 9. It could have been 6 if I spend more time with english.
During JC days, I used that drive of wanting to rank high and the drive to make up for my english score to study hard throughout the 2 years. I spent almost everyday studying, including weekends. However it was a bit too much though. Because of that, I didn't really get to enjoy JC life. So was a bit sad and wasted. Didn't do really well for 'A's. Only got 3As and 2Bs. But well, managed to get into the course I wanted to. It's been awhile since I studied anything. Hopefully the drive in me still remains. I need to constantly find new motivations to keep me going. I still remember what one of Secondary school teacher said. "The challenge is not to obtain success, but to maintain it". These words always remind me that I shouldn't be wasting time doing unnecessary and unproductive stuff. Because, if I do so, I would be further away from success.
Right now, I'm still lost. I don't know what am I going to do next. Still looking for a job but nobody contacted me after going to so many recruitment agencies. Really feel kinda lost and lack of energy and motivations. But after thinking back, I felt that I can't let the "Past Me" down. I need to keep my focus, spend my time fruitfully and not waste it. Hopefully I can get back to my original self soon.
I was pretty interested and good in math and I managed got into the first class which was supposed to be the top NA class. However, my results still remain the same for semesters. It was until Sec 4 when one exam had changed my fate since then. It was an Elementary Math exam. Days after the exam, everyone in class received our results. That time I only got a B3 which ranges from 65-69. Yet I was ranked third in class for E-Math. I was happy of course. For someone who always ranked below average, it was an achievement for me. It felt great. It created some sort of a force in me. I knew then, that I wanted to win. I wanted to rank higher. But back then, the temptations of playing computer games still exist. I knew if I wanted to rank higher, score higher, I had to sacrifice my times for games. Not just a little, but entirely. It was a painful decision. I had to resist strong temptations and urge in order to study. Many a times, it makes it hard for me to focus. So I continued to resist.
I started working on Math. Not just E-Math but also Additional Math. Started by just doing homework and then I move on to do extra revisions. The next exam came. Think I scored A1 for both Math or maybe one A1 and one A2. I felt like my effort is starting to pay off. I continued to work harder. This time round I continued to revise on my Math and additionally started working on my Combined Science. Then it was the end of Sec 4. Managed to get two A1s for Math and one A2 for Combined Science. Moreover, Sec 4 is the year which I get to take 'O' Levels E-Math unlike other subjects which were 'N' Levels. Everyone in my class took the exam. The results came out next year. Only 3 had gotten the desired A1 results. About half the class got A2. The rest didn't make the cut. I top the class for Math last year. So, I really wanted to get an A1 for this. Moreover, I wouldn't have to re-take to get a better score this year. My teacher had named 2 persons before the results were given at the end of the day. I was worried if I'm the last person. It was until I received my results slip that I jumped in joy. Finally gotten the A1 that I worked so hard for. It was another motivation for me for my final year. As I wouldn't have to take 'O' Level E-Math anymore, I just needed to focus on my other subjects. I started the year with a great boost. My foundation for Math and Science is already there. I just needed to maintain them. However, my other subjects like Chinese, Combined Humanities, English, Design & Technology are still pretty poor. I started working on these subjects. Lucky for me, I get to study 5 years. If I only studied 4 years, I wouldn't have enough time to study the remaining subjects and I would have flunk 'O's. It was hard. All of a sudden got to study everything in just 1 and a half years, considering that I did almost nothing for the past 3 and half years. Temptations to play computer games still exist once in awhile. But sometimes I do give in to my temptations after resisting for so long.
After completing 'O's, it was not long before we receive our results. I managed to get five A1s, one A2, and one B4. The B4 was my English. I regretted so much not putting enough effort in it. I spent a lot of time studying the other subjects while I knew my english was weak and yet I put in little time to improve it. That was my regret during that time. Got an L1R5 of 9. It could have been 6 if I spend more time with english.
During JC days, I used that drive of wanting to rank high and the drive to make up for my english score to study hard throughout the 2 years. I spent almost everyday studying, including weekends. However it was a bit too much though. Because of that, I didn't really get to enjoy JC life. So was a bit sad and wasted. Didn't do really well for 'A's. Only got 3As and 2Bs. But well, managed to get into the course I wanted to. It's been awhile since I studied anything. Hopefully the drive in me still remains. I need to constantly find new motivations to keep me going. I still remember what one of Secondary school teacher said. "The challenge is not to obtain success, but to maintain it". These words always remind me that I shouldn't be wasting time doing unnecessary and unproductive stuff. Because, if I do so, I would be further away from success.
Right now, I'm still lost. I don't know what am I going to do next. Still looking for a job but nobody contacted me after going to so many recruitment agencies. Really feel kinda lost and lack of energy and motivations. But after thinking back, I felt that I can't let the "Past Me" down. I need to keep my focus, spend my time fruitfully and not waste it. Hopefully I can get back to my original self soon.
ABC
This is a story of a close friend of mine who shared his story with me. I shall name him Boy A. Boy A had a close friend Girl B. One day Boy A told Girl B that he had a crush on Girl C which is a friend of Girl B. Boy A continued to like Girl C for a long time despite having no advancement and Girl B continued to be good friends with Boy A. Also, Boy A continues to ask Girl B to introduce Girl C to him. However, as time passed, Boy A started to like Girl B. But he thought it was just a moment of desperateness that he like her. So he avoided this feeling. One day his close friend Girl B has a boyfriend. Still he continued to avoid his feelings while thinking that he likes Girl C. Almost 4 years had passed since they knew each other and one day while Boy A was cleaning his cupboard, he found gifts, letters and photos of Girl B and him together. He then realized, that every phase of the 4 years that he was going through, he had receive encouragement letters from Girl B as well as the time she had spent together with him. Someone so nice had been with him all along. Yet he was blind to all her efforts. He was ignorant of her devotion. It was then he realized that he had love her all along. He just refused to accept that he like her because of peer pressure and his foolish crush over Girl C who he barely even know. He realized it was already too late. He probably had hurt her feelings. Moreover, he lost the chance to be with her. He now regretted it and he felt guilty for his foolishness. He kept running away from his true feelings and seek after beauty which blinded him from the truth. Boy A then said, if he had a chance to relive the 4 years, he would do it. He do not know what to do now, but thought of making it up to her in anyway to make her happy.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
End
Audit is finally over. I have 0 working days left till ORD. Now, it time for a long break and I have planned out what I want to do through out the 10 months before I start school next year. Quite excited to ORD at the same time sad to leave my second family. The people in there are wonderful. Unlike elsewhere, every emotions expressed in the unit were real. My buddies and I communicated and bonded through scoldings and we all know it's all in the name of fun. It's sad to part ways but it's unavoidable. People come and go. It's a natural cycle that repeats in our entire lifetime. It's finally time for me to do something for myself instead of for someone else. There are plenty of things that I want to do and I gonna take it a step at a time. Too lazy to write anymore today. Shall continue next time~
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Unexpected
Today my crush just went online on facebook. It was just when I was checking her online status and she suddenly messaged me!! It was totally unexpected!! Though she only asked me to help her like some pages and thanked me that's all. It was enough to make my day. Mind blown!!
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Life So Far
It's been awhile since I post something on this blog. Every single day in camp has been challenging for me especially preparation for Audit. Now that Audit is coming, everyone is busy correcting documents and also producing those that were never done or existed in the place. Walls & doors are repainted, notice boards & cupboards are replaced with new ones as though the entire unit had been revamped. Everything that was done up till now is just for show. After audit thing would likely go back to square one. Haven't taken a break for weeks due to all this effort to cover up mistakes and errors. Everyday I've been sitting in the office from 8am to 11pm working non-stop. Sometimes even have to miss breakfast. Although my upper study has been nice to me in the past, he had taught me wrong things and it's only during this period then I learnt all the actual and correct ways of doing things so I don't know should I be angry with him or not. Thus, I have a lot of mistakes in documentation that I need to correct. There's 2 more weeks left till AAO and it's pretty rush especially we have so little time to prepare. Other years they have much more time for preparation like a 3-4 months. This year there's only about 2 months due to NDP involvement. Sigh.. the thought of returning to camp every week is just too depressing. There's only more shit to cover each time I go back there.
Friday I went for dental FFI. Along the way I saw my schoolmate was going to ORD the same date as me. So far now he's been clearing offs and leaves everyday. Having heard this makes me envy of him. So far most of my friends now are enjoying their NS days. Sleeping till noon almost everyday, going to gym at 3-4pm. Going for nights out at 5-6pm. It makes me wonder how unfair can it be in NS. We are serving the same NS but our workload are completely different. I don't expect things to be completely fair in the first place but having such a slack routine is totally incomprehensible. Every time I think of this, it just makes me pissed. What worst is when I hear them complaining they are busy. If they are busy in the first place, how is it possible for them to even sleep till so late and end work so early. Totally ridiculous and it makes me feel like smacking them. Just 3 more weeks to go and I'll go on offs and leave everyday to make up the countless nights we spent everyday working and weekends duties.
Writing this chunk of stuff just got me quite pissed for awhile. So far I planned a few things to do after I go on offs and leave. Firstly, it will be enroll in driving course. I've been reluctant to enroll in it because I was too lazy to travel to driving centre to enroll myself haha. I'll go the week straight after AAO and enroll. Secondly, it will be improving my fitness. It's been awhile since I train my body. I have shrink pretty much due to loss of muscle mass. I should thank god for giving me this body because it doesn't grow fat no matter how much I eat. If I stop training, my appetite will adjust accordingly and prevent me from having too much intake of nutrients. Moreover, my body burns fat quite easily and this is probably related to my excessive sweating. Just running about 6km and I'll be so drenched that my clothes including socks would be soaked with my sweat. Lastly, I'll read out on accounting stuff to improve my knowledge. I've always been trying to do this but end up giving up halfway. Because whenever I have free time, I would use it to play games or go out. I need to have the conviction to do it. That's about all for the 2 months. I'll find a job for the next 8 months after I ORD in Dec.
Anyway seeing my crush on facebook for the past few weeks each time just makes me feel more desperate to be with her. Though I sound a bit creepy and sick but I just have this urge that to be together with her. Though we don't even know each other as friends and all I think of her is that she's cute. Maybe I can call it love at first sight? So far most of my friends are guys and mostly from NS. So it's kind of sad. Maybe I need to go out and know more people. Haha I sound a bit desperate but I don't think I should hide my true feelings. But well, being single has it's benefits too. Freedom, Responsibility, Money and maybe Stress? For now I'll just let fate decides for me. That's all for now~
Friday I went for dental FFI. Along the way I saw my schoolmate was going to ORD the same date as me. So far now he's been clearing offs and leaves everyday. Having heard this makes me envy of him. So far most of my friends now are enjoying their NS days. Sleeping till noon almost everyday, going to gym at 3-4pm. Going for nights out at 5-6pm. It makes me wonder how unfair can it be in NS. We are serving the same NS but our workload are completely different. I don't expect things to be completely fair in the first place but having such a slack routine is totally incomprehensible. Every time I think of this, it just makes me pissed. What worst is when I hear them complaining they are busy. If they are busy in the first place, how is it possible for them to even sleep till so late and end work so early. Totally ridiculous and it makes me feel like smacking them. Just 3 more weeks to go and I'll go on offs and leave everyday to make up the countless nights we spent everyday working and weekends duties.
Writing this chunk of stuff just got me quite pissed for awhile. So far I planned a few things to do after I go on offs and leave. Firstly, it will be enroll in driving course. I've been reluctant to enroll in it because I was too lazy to travel to driving centre to enroll myself haha. I'll go the week straight after AAO and enroll. Secondly, it will be improving my fitness. It's been awhile since I train my body. I have shrink pretty much due to loss of muscle mass. I should thank god for giving me this body because it doesn't grow fat no matter how much I eat. If I stop training, my appetite will adjust accordingly and prevent me from having too much intake of nutrients. Moreover, my body burns fat quite easily and this is probably related to my excessive sweating. Just running about 6km and I'll be so drenched that my clothes including socks would be soaked with my sweat. Lastly, I'll read out on accounting stuff to improve my knowledge. I've always been trying to do this but end up giving up halfway. Because whenever I have free time, I would use it to play games or go out. I need to have the conviction to do it. That's about all for the 2 months. I'll find a job for the next 8 months after I ORD in Dec.
Anyway seeing my crush on facebook for the past few weeks each time just makes me feel more desperate to be with her. Though I sound a bit creepy and sick but I just have this urge that to be together with her. Though we don't even know each other as friends and all I think of her is that she's cute. Maybe I can call it love at first sight? So far most of my friends are guys and mostly from NS. So it's kind of sad. Maybe I need to go out and know more people. Haha I sound a bit desperate but I don't think I should hide my true feelings. But well, being single has it's benefits too. Freedom, Responsibility, Money and maybe Stress? For now I'll just let fate decides for me. That's all for now~
Friday, July 6, 2012
NDP & NS
It 's been awhile since I went for a run! I was pretty exhausted right after the run. Probably because I stopped training so long. But I was glad that I managed to push myself to run 4km today despite being so tiring. Hopefully I can maintain this kind of lifestyle.
Tomorrow is another day of NDP. Hopefully I can enjoy it again haha.. So far there has not been one rehearsal that is without any problems. So I wish things can go smoothly for once. However something disturbing me is that a certain few people on higher management level tend to know little things on the ground and they make many assumptions - Based on the reasons they gave for some of the orders or sometimes there's no reason given for orders. As such, they came out with many redundant or sometimes, illogical ideas that cause many inconveniences to people. Why can't they spare some thoughts for the people working under them?
Another thing lacking is imperfect knowledge. Information flow between 2 parties always has to go pass a middleman. As a result, it causes multiple delays in passing information or in worst scenario, information is not passed to either party at all. All the information gathering and disseminating has to be done through the single person causes too many things for that one person to managed. In economics, it's decreasing marginal returns. Moreover, both parties do not know have the information to contact each another and this contact information lies with that middleman. If only our voices were strong enough to make changes.
When it comes to military, some people tend to use their rank to suppress ideas and voices which is a saddening situation to see. This culture of "sucking thumb" needs to be changed because people would be blindly following orders and it causes inefficiency in the organization. It also stymie the training of every soldier to be a thinking soldier. It is discouraging as people can think about many ideas but only few would help them to implement it. Therefore, many soldiers end up being ignorant and showing little concern and enthusiasm in their work. Sometimes they do listen to our ideas and voices. But this has to be done at the right moment which by then, it's already too late. In the sense that you have already gone through it. Not everyone can be self-motivated like the soldiers we see featuring in magazines or videos. After all, nobody likes to be controlled by others. Hierarchy is too overwhelming and it's influence should be reduced in my opinion.
Tomorrow is another day of NDP. Hopefully I can enjoy it again haha.. So far there has not been one rehearsal that is without any problems. So I wish things can go smoothly for once. However something disturbing me is that a certain few people on higher management level tend to know little things on the ground and they make many assumptions - Based on the reasons they gave for some of the orders or sometimes there's no reason given for orders. As such, they came out with many redundant or sometimes, illogical ideas that cause many inconveniences to people. Why can't they spare some thoughts for the people working under them?
Another thing lacking is imperfect knowledge. Information flow between 2 parties always has to go pass a middleman. As a result, it causes multiple delays in passing information or in worst scenario, information is not passed to either party at all. All the information gathering and disseminating has to be done through the single person causes too many things for that one person to managed. In economics, it's decreasing marginal returns. Moreover, both parties do not know have the information to contact each another and this contact information lies with that middleman. If only our voices were strong enough to make changes.
When it comes to military, some people tend to use their rank to suppress ideas and voices which is a saddening situation to see. This culture of "sucking thumb" needs to be changed because people would be blindly following orders and it causes inefficiency in the organization. It also stymie the training of every soldier to be a thinking soldier. It is discouraging as people can think about many ideas but only few would help them to implement it. Therefore, many soldiers end up being ignorant and showing little concern and enthusiasm in their work. Sometimes they do listen to our ideas and voices. But this has to be done at the right moment which by then, it's already too late. In the sense that you have already gone through it. Not everyone can be self-motivated like the soldiers we see featuring in magazines or videos. After all, nobody likes to be controlled by others. Hierarchy is too overwhelming and it's influence should be reduced in my opinion.
48 in 24
It's been awhile since I last posted. I have never failed to forget that I have a blog. As such, the interval between each blogs tend to be months haha. There's too many things that I want to do and I need to do.
The things that I want to do
1. Improve my command of language as well as my writing ability.
2. Learn a word a day so that I would learn more than 300 words by the time I go for studies.
3. Improve my presentation.
4. Change my perspective such that I would think more logically and rationally.
5. Maintain fitness level.
The things that I need to do
1. Training Programme and de-conflict it.
2. Lesson Plans
3. Duties
4. Parade State
5. Simulator Records
6. Daily Training
Most of the things I need to do are preparations for AAO. I find some of these tasking are very tedious and demanding on information. Moreover, the rate I do things tends to be very inefficient as I'm very careless and I give little thoughts to my work, which I end up editing my work numerous times. Probably because of my impatient attitude that is why I tend to rush my work, making many mistakes. That's why I felt like I need 48 hours in a day.. The amount of work for AAO is endless... anyway I'm too tired to type any longer. Got to sleep!
The things that I want to do
1. Improve my command of language as well as my writing ability.
2. Learn a word a day so that I would learn more than 300 words by the time I go for studies.
3. Improve my presentation.
4. Change my perspective such that I would think more logically and rationally.
5. Maintain fitness level.
The things that I need to do
1. Training Programme and de-conflict it.
2. Lesson Plans
3. Duties
4. Parade State
5. Simulator Records
6. Daily Training
Most of the things I need to do are preparations for AAO. I find some of these tasking are very tedious and demanding on information. Moreover, the rate I do things tends to be very inefficient as I'm very careless and I give little thoughts to my work, which I end up editing my work numerous times. Probably because of my impatient attitude that is why I tend to rush my work, making many mistakes. That's why I felt like I need 48 hours in a day.. The amount of work for AAO is endless... anyway I'm too tired to type any longer. Got to sleep!
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Equality
Me and my friend have the same appointment but he's a regular and i'm a NSF. But the things I been tasked is so much more.. I can't stand it that i'm so busy with work and yet he could still spend so much time doing other stuff like organizing his community stuff. It's so freaking unfair and I'm so damn pissed.. why am I tasked to do so many things. Cohesions, ADS, Training Programmes and now even GreenChip. Yet he only has to track SATR once in awhile and assist in paper. Im not even receiving half of his pay and yet I have to do so much more work. I'm seriously becoming sick of this shit. It piss me off to see him do his personal stuff during working hours. We are in the same battery and he don't even help me.. His superior also finds me for tasking instead of him.. It just damn demoralizing to keep going on like this.. Even though he is leaving for studies soon, that doesn't mean he shouldn't be doing anything. Instead all the more he should do more before he leaves. Really had enough of all this.. I'm not going to give a damn anymore on this.. It 's not my career either. Someone who is regular isn't doing much, then why should a NSF more. Just can't wait to ORD soon. it's just too much to see such things happening.
Monday, April 9, 2012
Nightmare
I was on off today so I was at home sleeping. Suddenly someone called me at 0610. I ignored it and went back to sleep. Then the same person called again and this time round I had a feeling that it must be some trouble related to the unit. So I picked up the call hesitantly. The guy asked if I'm the UDSO and when can he take over weapon store. I was stunned and paused to think for a second and then I realised I was the UDSO of the entire weekend. I was shocked and I hurriedly went back camp to take over from GDO and issue out the keys.. It was a total disaster.. After I hand over to today's UDSO then I made my way home. I only reached home about 1010.. Assigning me as the GDO on Thursday already ate half my Good Friday.. Assigning me as UDSO over the weekend ate half my off today =.=
Moreover I slept so late last night.. Now I gonna spend the rest of my day off just to sleep.. Just wasted my off day.. wth.. wonder if I can really sleep because I'm so pissed..
Moreover I slept so late last night.. Now I gonna spend the rest of my day off just to sleep.. Just wasted my off day.. wth.. wonder if I can really sleep because I'm so pissed..
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Genesis
Finally figure out how to use some of this new blog functions. Shall start blogging here from now on, even though I don't blog very often..
Anyway, I took off for tomorrow so that I have a pretty long weekend. But there's still work that I need to do and it's bothering me. Sigh.. Starting next week, I will be very busy everyday because of NDP and lots of activities, meetings and exercises to plan and conduct. I need to start working more efficiently instead of just going the usual hard way. (Partly also due to my indecisiveness that I tend to delay planing and actions) There's a long journey ahead of me and I guess for now I need to settle my current problems before I can start thinking and planning ahead.
Again, my desires for her remain unwavered. Knowing that nothing would happen, slowly I'm becoming numb to this desire. But I shall not let this emptiness affect me. I must keep my spirit burning and live my life to the fullest!!
Anyway, I took off for tomorrow so that I have a pretty long weekend. But there's still work that I need to do and it's bothering me. Sigh.. Starting next week, I will be very busy everyday because of NDP and lots of activities, meetings and exercises to plan and conduct. I need to start working more efficiently instead of just going the usual hard way. (Partly also due to my indecisiveness that I tend to delay planing and actions) There's a long journey ahead of me and I guess for now I need to settle my current problems before I can start thinking and planning ahead.
Again, my desires for her remain unwavered. Knowing that nothing would happen, slowly I'm becoming numb to this desire. But I shall not let this emptiness affect me. I must keep my spirit burning and live my life to the fullest!!
Migration
Just found out there's this thing.. Currently in the midst of exploring. Will take some time before I start to use this. Stay Tunes!
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